You and I

We are offiicially over. OFFICIALLY. dead and gone. haha. i do not want to say much, but thank you so much. for everyone that has prayed for me, well your prayers failed! xP but nvm, i thanks u all for the supports, and for four years, its all over. bye guys. :D

至：让我沉迷于爱情的妳.

请原谅放不下你的我.... ><

请原谅这么爱你的我.... ><

请原谅这只会说，不会做的我.... ><

请原谅这让你失去安全感的我.... ><

请原谅这一直只会在背后看护你的我.... ><

请原谅这么懦弱的我小.... ><

请原谅这背叛了你的信任的我.... ><

请原谅这胡思乱想的我.... ><

请原谅这不争气的我.... ><

请原谅这一直让你无法前进的我.... ><

请原谅这让你无法相信爱情的我.... ><

请原谅这当你受伤没有在你身边的我.... ><

请原谅这无法忘掉你的我.... ><

请原谅这无法忘掉爱你的感觉的我.... ><

请原谅这容易嫉妒的我.... ><

请原谅这没有勇气的我.... ><

请原谅这一直牵挂着你的我..... ><

请原谅... 原来我没了你... 已经不再是我... ><

请原谅这没有挽留你的我.... ><

请原谅这伤透你的心的我.... ><

请原谅这没有安全感的我....><

请原谅怕失去你的我.... ><

请原谅这诸多要求的我....... 我真的哭了......... 我也怕了.... 怕没有你的世界......

原来.... 我一直没有放下你.... 原来... 我不想爱其他人了..... 因为.... 爱你的我.. 已经把你当成我的世界了.........



Its the heart.. afraid of breaking... that never... learns to dance.....


原来我多么的爱你..... 就连小叮当也说我已经末期了..... 没救了....... 因为，我就是爱你嘛~... =)

四年前，我们的爱情故事开始了... 当你说要分手时... 我脑袋里就只有.......... 你...... 没办法.... 我让你走了... 原来我的潜意识里... 还期望着你回我身边..... 一直...... 一直........

四年后, 1460天, 我们的故事依然继续着...... 我希望.... 我期望.... 我要..... 我们的故事... 能持续到老... 因为... 我要牵你的手... 到老.... =) 你不能走了，我背你... 你不能记得了... 我帮你记... 但当你不再爱我了... 我只能说... 我还爱你...... =)



我不逼你。但我会等... 等到你回心转意.... 等到你.. 再次看着我的眼睛说... 我爱你....




请原谅这任性的我... 也请你原谅这曾经想过要放弃的我.... 也请你接受....我对你的无私付出.....


也许在别人眼里, 真的非常的笨，放不开四年爱情的我... 但，我就是要爱！就是要爱你! :D



P/S ~ 我爱你。

ke-emo-an yang amat sorry kan. sorry poor bm -__-

i thought i will be fine.


i thought i will be just fine.......


but my heart tells me its not.. i am not fine at all..



i hold on and on.. and on and on and on.. and till today.. i am still holding on............ i've never think bout letting you go.. even if i did, that can't even last for 3 days.. i tried my best to avoid any chance of seeing you.. i tried to avoid any chance of getting contact with u.. i tried my very very best.. to not to see what happened in your life.. but no matter how hard i tried.. no matter how much effort i put in.. at last.. i still cried in the middle of night.. when the feeling of missing you has gone berserk within me once more.. it repeats, and it repeated, and is still repeating in my life ever since the day i lost you.. the only thing i want to tell you is.. i love you.. i know for you to place your trust in me once more, is harder than anything else.. i will do anything.. and everything i could.. to make you feel protected once more.. sorry if i'd ruined your trustworthy.. i love you..














ever for me to have the chance to hold you once more.. i will never let you go anymore.. let us stay on.. and on.. and hang onto both our hearts.. which had hung on for years.. and never betray our feelings anymore.. i love you.. i do..

ps emo post again -__-

我该怎么办？


















我真的，真的很想你......






























我试着不要回你，但我真的很不舍得....






























我打了字，却送不出.. 我打了短讯，也送不出... 我拨了电话，但却直接挂了...



















我真的很，很，非常，非常地，想你..... 我真的不知道该如何对你说，才能不让你感到不开心....

sorry

2005 - 2009




how long can i take this?

how far can i bring this?

how long will it takes to let everything come to an end?

how much do i still have to do?



































10th of October.



this is the first time i cried due to the overflow of the feeling of missing u.

nothing happened.. but.. it certainly hurts.. i don't know why.. the feeling come from nowhere.. reaches my heart and is killing me right now.. it hurts..... it really does..

to whom it may concern

i don't need an answer anymore. =) i don't want it already. its enough of suffering and slowing down my pace. i will live on, my way. =) i love u still, but i don't need anything anymore. i will live on, and on, u should do so as well. =D i gave up. haha! it felt so much lighter now! :D